Why Can't I Work All Day

I would rather be at work than anywhere else right now. I feel like a loser at school for some reason. Nobody wants to talk, especially on 9/11, one of the gloomiest days in our nation's history. I had to watch a movie that I wish I never saw. I saw things that made me want to kill people, cry, and even die. People fell from the top of the world trade center like giant hail stones. This was the worst day that I have had in a while. I used to be happy, until today. I hate being reminded of something that I saw on the news back when I was in fifth grade. I was not mature enough to know how to react to that because I was only 10. This day so far just keeps getting worse like a huge avalanche that just swallowed me up. One of my friends is just fueling the hatred with his wise cracks. I really need to go to work and I mean NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!